Its normal as people say but I don't like the feeling. It hurts and I don't like feeling this way. He's not like this before and now he's different. I don't know how to assure him anymore. He's just to carried away by what he's feeling and refuse to believe my explanation which make me think he's planning to leave me. I'm scared that he might leave me for another since he's at his village now and he's not even replying my messages and blame me if his messages that are pending to me because he assumes I off my cell. Just because of that small matter he's doing this to me. Maybe he don't trust me anymore? I don't know what else to do. I've been trying to message him and he's not even replying any and now I'm thinking that he doesn't want to message me since that is the only way we stay connected to each other. Long distance relationship is harder than it seems. :( Maybe he doesn't have any credits left? I don't know, all I know is its sad. Now, I'm just thinking is it him that I want to be with or maybe this is just temporary? I love him so much and dump my ex just because I wanted to be with him. I'm just dumb right? But whatever that's going on with our relationship I'm hanging on to it even though its fragile at the moment. I'm just having second thoughts or just unsure about this. Eventually, it will go away and we will certainly be like before.
Cassie - Is It You
I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say
The way they feel about you
And I'm looking for someone who understands
How I feel
Someone who can keep it real
And who knows the way
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there
Wants to share
Shows he cares
Thinkin' you're the one that I've been waiting for
[chorus: 2x]
Is it you? Is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
I'm looking for someone to share my pain
Someone who I can run to
Who will stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust whose heart is right
And I'm looking for someone
And I'm looking for someone who understands
How I feel
Someone who can keep it real
And who knows the way
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there
Wants to share
Shows he cares
Thinking you're the one that I've been waiting for
[chorus 2x]
Take for granted how much I care (how much I care)
Appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of love to share
[chorus 2x]
* I just thought that this song fits this moment. (-_-)"